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I took this photo while in South Carolina, just a few days prior to being on the coast. This little girl was attending a “super-hero” birthday party in the park, but took a break to swing. Isn’t she adorable?<\/p><\/div>I\u2019ve been fighting a deep, dark depression for, well, my whole life, but this particular \u201cepisode\u201d has been going on for quite a long while. Longer than normal. <\/p>\n

Even being with my hubby and my dog at one of my very favorite places in the whole entire world ~ the coast of Georgia ~ did not get me out of my funk.<\/p>\n

This past Thursday night, our last in the area, we went to The Island (St. Simons, for those of you not from around those parts) and had dinner at a restaurant on the Pier, then walked around. The almost-full moon twinkled on the sea, and the light from the lighthouse spun slowly around, guiding ships away from the barrier islands.<\/p>\n

We sat for a while on a convenient bench next to the winding path right next to the ocean. When we got tired of bugs using us as a snack, we wandered down to the playground. The gate had been closed for the night, but it wasn\u2019t locked, so I opened it anyway and went in.<\/p>\n

And sat on the swing, and swung, swung, swung. My view alternated between the giant, ancient oak trees that gracefully cover the picnic area, and one bright star above me in the sky.<\/p>\n

I thought about the kids\u2019 laughter I\u2019d just heard, how free and unselfconscious they are. I thought about how swinging feels like flying. Like freedom. How infinitesimal I really am, when I look at that star ~ or actually, the light it flung toward us millions? billions? of years ago. How insignificant my problems, when I look at the oaks that have been there well, hundreds and hundreds of years. <\/p>\n

And as I pushed off the ground to go higher and higher, I thought: what\u2019s holding me back from actually reaching the star of my dreams? <\/p>\n

The answer? Me, of course. I\u2019m letting myself get mired in the mud of my own depression. I\u2019m getting stuck in the dark hole, afraid to look at the light. Afraid to reach for the stars.<\/p>\n

So I stuck my feet in the hair, pushed my head back, and let the wind and the force of my legs take me as high as I could go. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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