Category Archives: mental illness

#dSavannahDefects – M is for…

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My theme this year for the #AtoZchallenge is #dSavannahDefects, aka “What’s it’s like dealing with #InvisibleIllnesses”. Or, in short, {some of} what’s wrong with me.  And I really am truly sorry that I haven’t been reading or commenting or tweeting or promoting the other blogs I’ve been following. Y’all are great. It truly is not you – it’s me. And the only few good hours I have in each day. … maintaining My therapist suggested this topic, and I thought it was a good one. When you suffer #InvisibleIllnesses, you still attempt to maintain your life. As best you can. But many days (like for me, today), you wake up feeling like death warmed over that was run over by a giant truck and perhaps … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – H is for…

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dSavannah note: I actually wrote this post some months ago but never published it (for no apparent reason), and found it when preparing for the #AtoZChallenge. Thought it was appropriate for my theme. Also, ironically (or is it coincidentally? or both?) I have a whopper of a headache today as I finish this up and publish it. One of the wonderful things about me (that’s sarcasm, by the way) is that I’m a little barometer. If there’s a storm front coming in, I get a headache, and those often turn into migraines (which I’ll write about for M.) (And no idea why I’ve got this particular headache. The radar doesn’t show anything suspicious…) I also want to point out that I do know that not … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – F is for…

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…fatigue If I need to quickly define my health issues, I say I have “chronic fatigue and chronic pain”. (Cuz even *I* can’t remember all 20-something of my diagnoses.) As I described depression as being sad times 1,000, fatigue is being tired times 1,000. Times a million. I just ran across a site called “Mis-Treated“, about a woman’s search for answers to health problems. As I’ve clicked and clicked and read a bunch of posts, I’m mentally jumping up and down (cuz physically jumping up and down would hurt). She is writing about ME. About MY Story. About dealing with being chronically ill and disabled. She wrote a very cogent post, “Five Reasons Fatigue Isn’t Like Normal Tiredness (Proving Most People Don’t Get It)“. And … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – D is for…

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… depression I suffer from depression. It is a liar, that depression, but its words ring true. It is a dark hole I find myself in, a hole that I often have a difficult time escaping. It is a heavy weight on my chest. It is the words ‘you’re worthless’ whispered to me in the dark, in the daylight. It is the feeling of intense lethargy, of being unable to move, nor really wanting to. Depression goes far beyond being sad about something. It is sadness times 1,000. Times a million. It doesn’t make logical sense, the depression. It can look at all the great things in your life and dismiss them. Tell you that you don’t deserve them. That it’s a fluke you have … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – A is for…

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… awareness Hi. My name is dSavannah (pronounced dee-Suh-ván-uh) and I have a host of invisible illnesses. In this here #AtoZChallenge2016, I am planning on writing about these illnesses (and others), as I told you in my theme reveal. I am doing this to raise awareness for mine and various other invisible ailments. Obviously, there are tons of illnesses that people know about: cancer, for instance, or high blood pressure. There are also a ton of illnesses that are relatively unknown, such as CVID (Common Variable Immune Deficiency, a disorder that impairs the immune system; people with CVID are highly susceptible to infection. That means they get sick all. the. time.), which is suffered by a dear friend of mine from college, or fibromyalgia (a … Continue reading

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GNU Pat Conroy

Me with Pat Conroy, Sept. 2015. He was tickled I

On Friday, the world lost another great voice with the death of author Pat Conroy, who passed away of pancreatic cancer at age 70, just four weeks after his diagnosis. When I read the news about the cancer, I knew he wouldn’t last long. I wish I hadn’t been right. I was introduced to his work my freshman year at college. I was “dating” (using the term incredibly loosely) a guy who gave me a copy of The Prince of Tides. I don’t remember exactly what he said when he gave it to me; just something about how I should read it. You probably need to know several things about me before I tell you how the book impacted me, in order to understand the why. … Continue reading

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Diving deep into mental illness

Challenger Deep

Hi. My name is dSavannah and I suffer from mental illness. Specifically, depression, anxiety, PTSD, and OCD tendencies. I’ve talked about my issues before, but I felt compelled to address them again in a specific blog post, because I just finished reading Challenger Deep by Neal Shusterman. As I’ve mentioned before, I’m a member of the Amazon Vine program, which means I get to pick out books (and other items) to review. And Challenger Deep was available. BUT… I almost didn’t order it, based on the description: “A captivating novel about mental illness that lingers long beyond the last page, Challenger Deep is a heartfelt tour de force.” Reason being, I fight with my own demons, and I find it difficult to read things that contribute to … Continue reading

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