Category Archives: mental illness

So this is embarrassing…

Since best practices say you should have photos for your blog posts, and no one wants to see photos of me crying, I

Obviously I haven’t written anything on my blog for a long, long time. (Except in my head… But since brainwave to blog technology doesn’t exist yet, I guess it doesn’t count…) For reasons, mostly my health. And pain. And brain fog. But, mainly, last August I got a temporary, part-time, work-from-home job. The pay was terrible, but it was something, which was better than what I’d been making before, which was zero. And it was totally something I could do, having done it before, and also generally liking the basic concept of the job. (And yes, I’m being vague about it.) Unfortunately, every ounce of energy I had, and every spoon I possessed (and then some), went toward me doing this job. (Even a healthy … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – X is for…

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My theme this year for the #AtoZchallenge is #dSavannahDefects, aka “What’s it’s like dealing with #InvisibleIllnesses”. Or, in short, {some of} what’s wrong with me. Down to our last letters! Whew! … X-tras So, yeah. I’m kinda cheating on today’s letter, but that’s my prerogative as a writer. And blogger. So today is for “x-tras” that didn’t make it into other posts, for whatever reason. (Either I thought of it later, or I was tired that day, or whatever. Or it’s appropriate for today.) A lot of topics fit within my theme, but I didn’t get around to writing about them. I gotta be honest. This writing every day like this and answering comments is tiring. And I stopped visiting other blogs and tweeting them … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – W is for…

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My theme this year for the #AtoZchallenge is #dSavannahDefects, aka “What’s it’s like dealing with #InvisibleIllnesses”. Or, in short, {some of} what’s wrong with me. And only three letters left… … wisdom teeth So. I have all of my wisdom teeth, which is odd, for a woman of 45 years. Most people have their wisdom teeth taken out when they are young, generally because there isn’t room in their mouth for them. Not me. I have plenty of room. My former hygienist just loved saying how I “have a big mouth”. Seriously. She thought it was the funniest thing ever. But now, I need to have my wisdom teeth out, and of course, it’s not the easy thing it is for most people. Heck, my … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – P is for…

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My theme this year for the #AtoZchallenge is #dSavannahDefects, aka “What’s it’s like dealing with #InvisibleIllnesses”. Or, in short, {some of} what’s wrong with me. … paperwork The absolute bane of my existence as a Sick Person is … paperwork. You’d probably guess something else, like, being in pain or the anti-mold diet or medications, or simply being sick, but not. It’s the {insert expletive} paperwork I have to fill out. Every.single.doctor has their own set. And then my insurance company keeps sending me stupid surveys to complete. And as I (possibly) mentioned in another post, I created a spreadsheet to keep up with the meds I have to take (and I save each week’s completed piece of paper), and a document listing all my … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – M is for…

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My theme this year for the #AtoZchallenge is #dSavannahDefects, aka “What’s it’s like dealing with #InvisibleIllnesses”. Or, in short, {some of} what’s wrong with me.  And I really am truly sorry that I haven’t been reading or commenting or tweeting or promoting the other blogs I’ve been following. Y’all are great. It truly is not you – it’s me. And the only few good hours I have in each day. … maintaining My therapist suggested this topic, and I thought it was a good one. When you suffer #InvisibleIllnesses, you still attempt to maintain your life. As best you can. But many days (like for me, today), you wake up feeling like death warmed over that was run over by a giant truck and perhaps … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – H is for…

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dSavannah note: I actually wrote this post some months ago but never published it (for no apparent reason), and found it when preparing for the #AtoZChallenge. Thought it was appropriate for my theme. Also, ironically (or is it coincidentally? or both?) I have a whopper of a headache today as I finish this up and publish it. One of the wonderful things about me (that’s sarcasm, by the way) is that I’m a little barometer. If there’s a storm front coming in, I get a headache, and those often turn into migraines (which I’ll write about for M.) (And no idea why I’ve got this particular headache. The radar doesn’t show anything suspicious…) I also want to point out that I do know that not … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – F is for…

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…fatigue If I need to quickly define my health issues, I say I have “chronic fatigue and chronic pain”. (Cuz even *I* can’t remember all 20-something of my diagnoses.) As I described depression as being sad times 1,000, fatigue is being tired times 1,000. Times a million. I just ran across a site called “Mis-Treated“, about a woman’s search for answers to health problems. As I’ve clicked and clicked and read a bunch of posts, I’m mentally jumping up and down (cuz physically jumping up and down would hurt). She is writing about ME. About MY Story. About dealing with being chronically ill and disabled. She wrote a very cogent post, “Five Reasons Fatigue Isn’t Like Normal Tiredness (Proving Most People Don’t Get It)“. And … Continue reading

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