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#dSavannahDefects – I is for… (pt 2)

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My theme this year for the #AtoZchallenge is #dSavannahDefects, aka “What’s it’s like dealing with #InvisibleIllnesses”. Or, in short, {some of} what’s wrong with me. This is part 2 of my I post, since I ran out of time to write everything I wanted to in Part 1. … imaging In the medical world, imaging is “creating images of the human body or parts of it, to diagnose or examine disease” (thanks, Wikipedia, for the easy definition). Types of imaging include X-rays (my topic for the letter X in the 2015 challenge), MRIs, CT-Scans, ultrasounds, endoscopy, and more. (I have had all of these tests done.) (Last year, I had *ten* imaging studies done. *Ten*. And they still don’t know what’s really wrong with me.) … Continue reading

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#AtoZChallenge Theme Reveal (!!!)

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Woot! Woot! For the third year in a row, I have signed up to participate in the #AtoZ Blogging Challenge, which means for the month of April, I will write and publish a blog post every day, except Sundays, starting with the letter A and working my way through the alphabet. The last two years, I’ve been a pantser (as in, writing by the seat of my pants; I had no idea day to day what topic I would write about). This year, I decided to write about a particular topic as a way to Shine a Light Into Dark Places in our world, which is one of my goals with this blog. I’ve actually been {gasp} planning my topic for each day… since January! … Continue reading

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Diving deep into mental illness

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Hi. My name is dSavannah and I suffer from mental illness. Specifically, depression, anxiety, PTSD, and OCD tendencies. I’ve talked about my issues before, but I felt compelled to address them again in a specific blog post, because I just finished reading Challenger Deep by Neal Shusterman. As I’ve mentioned before, I’m a member of the Amazon Vine program, which means I get to pick out books (and other items) to review. And Challenger Deep was available. BUT… I almost didn’t order it, based on the description: “A captivating novel about mental illness that lingers long beyond the last page, Challenger Deep is a heartfelt tour de force.” Reason being, I fight with my own demons, and I find it difficult to read things that contribute to … Continue reading

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State of my health, or What #InvisibleIllness is like

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dSavannah note & update 5/23/18: Typically, I do not edit or change blog posts once I’ve published them, except in rare exceptions to change a factual error or fix a typo. However, because I am still referring people to this post if they are interested in learning more about my illnesses, I felt I should add this note. Everything below is still true, almost three years later (this was originally published Oct 25, 2015). The only difference is I’ve added a bunch more symptoms (over 50!) and diagnosis (over 50!) and taken a ridiculous variety of medications and supplements and had various treatments and I’ve been to many more doctors. (And I’ve been too tired to write a new post with everything…) I also have … Continue reading

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Illness and Language

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As a Sick Person (and yes, those capitols are intentional), I spend most of my days doing… well, not much. I go to my many doctors, practically every day of the week. I read (when I can concentrate), I watch Netflix (because it at least distracts my brain from thinking about the pain and my health issues), I sleep (when I can), I cry (which is often). I also think. Which as we all know, is a super-bad idea. Ha ha. Anyway, one of the things that has occurred to me, as I’ve filled out what feels like thousands of New Patient Forms for as many doctors, is they all ask you to describe your symptoms using, well, language. As we all know, language is … Continue reading

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Reconstruction

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I can imagine that turning into a butterfly hurts. Not so much the cocooning – the wrapping yourself up in a warm dark place – But waking, blinking and disoriented, in a different state – every fundamental thing about you transformed – then the struggle to be released from where you put yourself. The unfolding of new, damp wings. The flexing of muscles you didn’t know you had. But Oh! The glory of that first flight – bird song in your ears sun in your face the horizon vast and welcoming. (20 March 2004; © D. Savannah George) I wrote that poem well over a decade ago, never expecting that I myself might one day feel like I am struggling to become a beautiful butterfly. … Continue reading

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More thoughts on insomnia…

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First of all, thank you to everyone who has sent me messages, commented on this post or the post on FB, etc. I now have a list of things to research as I get the energy. The biggest suggestion seems to be acupuncture… and it sucks that it isn’t covered by my insurance. (I’m discovering that if something might actually help, it’s not covered.) Luckily, my doctor’s practice has an acupuncturist on site, and hopefully will be willing to work with me on payment. (If not, I’ll search for another solution.) So, why am I writing about insomnia again? Because, of course, I’m suffering it again after being up all night last night, because I fell asleep around 1pm and slept til bedtime – when … Continue reading

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