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So this is embarrassing…

Since best practices say you should have photos for your blog posts, and no one wants to see photos of me crying, I

Obviously I haven’t written anything on my blog for a long, long time. (Except in my head… But since brainwave to blog technology doesn’t exist yet, I guess it doesn’t count…) For reasons, mostly my health. And pain. And brain fog. But, mainly, last August I got a temporary, part-time, work-from-home job. The pay was terrible, but it was something, which was better than what I’d been making before, which was zero. And it was totally something I could do, having done it before, and also generally liking the basic concept of the job. (And yes, I’m being vague about it.) Unfortunately, every ounce of energy I had, and every spoon I possessed (and then some), went toward me doing this job. (Even a healthy … Continue reading

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All I can do is cry…

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I wanted to write a post about having gratitude even in the midst of being a Sick Person, but then death smacked me upside the head a few days ago, and then social media flooded with stories of the woman attacked and sexually assaulted by the Stanford student (whose name I refuse to speak), and the lenient sentence he got, and … I just can’t. All I can do is cry. I cry for the victim of that horrible crime, even as I applaud ‘Emily Doe’s’ courage in writing and reading her Victim Statement, and sharing it with the world. It is hard to read. (But I hope you do.) It makes me cry more. But it is also hopeful. That maybe what she went … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – Y is for…

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My theme this year for the #AtoZchallenge is #dSavannahDefects, aka “What’s it’s like dealing with #InvisibleIllnesses”. Or, in short, {some of} what’s wrong with me. One letter to go… … yawn Seriously, peoples. I am exhausted. And I could NOT for the LIFE of me think of a topic for “Y”. Even The Mighty, the site I have spoken of before that features articles on a whole host of #InvisibleIllnesses, doesn’t even have a disease that starts with “Y”. (Their list of All Conditions A-Z ends with “W”.) I told one of my writing/editing buddies that fact, and he (Chris Votey) suggested yawn. And I’m totally using it. (Clearly.) Did y’all know that a yawn does not actually indicate boredom? That it means that you … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – V is for…

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My theme this year for the #AtoZchallenge is #dSavannahDefects, aka “What’s it’s like dealing with #InvisibleIllnesses”. Or, in short, {some of} what’s wrong with me. … vision, pt 1 So, I just read this really interesting article/post/Facebook note by a dude who is a software engineer. This guy, Blake Ross (that link is to his very own Wikipedia page), has just learned that most people can visualize things in their mind. He can’t. He has a condition known as aphantasia, or “a life without imagery.” Or, as he put it, a “blind mind’s eye”. The condition only just this past year received its official medical name. Because, who goes around thinking that something you experience every day isn’t something everyone experiences every day? (For me, … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – T is for…

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My theme this year for the #AtoZchallenge is #dSavannahDefects, aka “What’s it’s like dealing with #InvisibleIllnesses”. Or, in short, {some of} what’s wrong with me.  … thyroid The thyroid is a “butterfly-shaped gland that sits low on the front of the neck”. It produces a variety of hormones that “act throughout the body, influencing metabolism, growth and development, and body temperature” (webmd.com). So needless to say, the thyroid is pretty important in your overall health. There are tons of autoimmune disorders that have to do with the thyroid, and they are fairly common. Off the top of my head, I can think of four other people with thyroid issues. Both men and women can have thyroid problems, tho women are more likely to experience issues, … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – R is for…

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My theme this year for the #AtoZchallenge is #dSavannahDefects, aka “What’s it’s like dealing with #InvisibleIllnesses”. Or, in short, {some of} what’s wrong with me. … Rest In Peace Lemme tell you, chronic fatigue and insomnia are not friends. I was awake for 24 hours, then slept for 22, and woke up to an email from musician/writer Alex Woodward that Prince had died. And then of course, as I scrolled through my Facebook feed, people shared their Prince stories, and his music, and how much he meant to them, and how sad they are. This year has not been kind to our celebrities and people who shaped our generation, and thus our collective consciousness. So much sadness. So much loss. And then, just a few … Continue reading

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#dSavannahDefects – Q is for…

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My theme this year for the #AtoZchallenge is #dSavannahDefects, aka “What’s it’s like dealing with #InvisibleIllnesses”. Or, in short, {some of} what’s wrong with me. … Questions One of the most difficult things about being a Sick Person is all the questions I have. Questions that seemingly have no answers, that lead down a rabbit hole to more questions. With no real answers. Of course, the biggest question of them all is: WHY?!?!? followed closely on its heels by: WHY   ME !??!?    !?!?     ?? And there’s no answer to either one of those. The big WHY is a question that is best to let go of. It’s not productive, and can actually be hurtful. Even tho it’s the most natural question in the world to … Continue reading

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